Bummed

Published on May 20th, 2015 by Pastor Ed Hlad | 0
Bummed

Bummed

I woke up this morning feeling pretty bummed.  The Wikipedia definition of bummed is, “the state or art of bummingness” (at least it will be once I post it to Wikipedia).  I say the art of bummingness because I have raised being bummed to an art.  Lately, I seem to have this list of things in my life that are not like I would like them to be and once I get running through that list I can really bum myself out.  What is really “artful” about this process is that I have the unique ability to make me being bummed…your fault.  It really is an evil skill.  This morning though, was doubly “good” because, not only was I feeling bummed, but my wife and I slept with the windows open last night (and a fan in one window) and the temperature really dropped. Our bedroom was just like a camp site. Have you been camping?  You wake up with everything feeling damp, your head feeling like it was ten times larger than it really is, and your sinuses under so much pressure that if you sneeze your head will explode.  Yep, it was going to be a good day.

As I went to pick up my glasses from the nightstand, I accidentally picked up the little wooden prayer reminder that our church has been using.  It is just a little reminder to pray for our church.  God used it to remind me of how I was preaching through a series on Philippians and how much joy we have in our Christian lives.  The Spirit convicted my heart so I laid in bed for a few more minutes praying and rehearsing another list in my mind…a list of the great graces and mercies that I have been shown.  I thought of how much God loves me and how Jesus came and lived among us and gave his life so that I could live forever.  I have been reading through the Psalms with one of my friends and I was reminded how many times David was bummed but how he allowed truth to penetrate his despair.  Those truths healed his heart and they were healing my heart.  I no longer dreaded the day and my head seemed to be shrinking back to normal size (due more to my wife taking the fan out of the window than the truths of Scripture) so I jumped out of bed and was eager to face the day.

It is Wednesday so it is shave day.  As I shaved I realized that the blades in my razor were dull and so I changed them.  As I now looked at my bleeding neck, God once again moved my heart.  When I lay in bed and rehearsed those amazing truths, I did not need to open my Bible.  I knew those truths.  I have them hidden in my heart.  That is a good thing, and they got the job done.  But Solomon says that God’s mercies are new every morning.  Those new mercies are like the new blades…they cut cleaner and deeper into my heart.  I know I am driving this illustration to places it probably shouldn’t go but as I was showering I was thinking about how these new mercies are not necessarily new, innovative truths (the new blades were exactly like the old blades) but these new truths are simply fresher and sharper.  I know of the mercy and grace of Jesus on the cross, but there are deeper and fresher truths there to be discovered.  I almost couldn’t wait to finish my shower so that I could grab the Word, spend some time in prayer seeking the illumination of the Spirit, and see the new mercies that God had for me this day.  I couldn’t wait to see the events of the day unfold so that I could see the new mercies of God given to me.

I know that we need to be careful with this kind of thinking.  I hope I have been clear.  My heart is overwhelmed by the “old” truths of the love of God.  Looking for something new can be a fruitless task as Solomon reminded us “that there is nothing new under the sun” (Ecc. 1:9).  It can also be a dangerous task.  It is often how mistakes are made in interpreting Scripture.  But there are new mercies every day.  The depths of the grace and mercy of God as seen in the cross are depths we will explore the rest of our lives.  When seen afresh in the Word of God by the illumination of the Spirit, these truths lift our souls to levels of rejoicing that fill heaven with our praise.  They not only remove the bummingness but they cause the rejoicing.

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